Mello

Tittade för första gången på väldigt länge på Melodifestivalen - detta dramatiskt överskattade fenomen. Dra inga förhastade slutsatser bara för det var inte för själva programmet som jag tittade utan för sällskapet jag spenderade kvällen med. Så sjukt skönt att bara umgås - inte dricka en massa alkohol och spela en massa hög musik medan en låtsas vara någon en inte är på en fest där en inte ens känner sig bekväm, utan bara umgås framför ett tv-program och diskutera ingenting och allt som en någonsin kan lyckas associera med gräslig musik, kräkframkallande scenkläder och svenska dåliga ordvitsar.
Jag är totalt hög på socker just nu så något avsnitt till med Doctor Who och sen släpa sig över till sängen är det som står på planeringen. Den ser minsann ganska lockande ut just nu. Synd att den är tom.

Beware the fangirl squee

Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki (Dean and Sam Winchester from the TV show Supernatural) in a clip from Nashcon 2012 discussing periods and swash buckling. I couldn't help myself. I'm just the kind of sad little fangirl I pretend I'm not.

Updated TV

Desperate Housewives: Just finished season four and I’ve got two words for you: Nathan Fillion. That’ll probably be my lasting memory of that season. No, I’m sure it will be.
That and the Scavo’s new problematic restaurant. Tom's still a bit of a favourite.

Sherlock: I’m stunned. And obsessed. It’s so amazing I can’t even begin to tell you how wonderful it’s been to return to that show over and over ever since I laid my big nerdy hands on it. It's gone to the point where I start crying as soon as someone mentions how heartbroken Watson was after Sherlock's fall. I'm not even embarassed about it anymore.
Moriarty was real. I believe in Sherlock Holmes.

Death Valley: Crap. Immature crap. GIVE ME BACK THE WALKING DEAD! This coming from the girl who actually thought some of the stuff Jackass did back in the day was funny. There's no logic whatsoever. Like, if there's been vampires, werewolves and zombies around for a whole year, where's the curfew they probably would have set up? Why doesn't these special forces wear better armor? Or, here's a rebellious thought; WHY NOT SHOW SOME FUCKING PROFESSIONALISM??!

Spartacus: Vengeance: At last we get to meet our favourite gladiators again! Obviously I was (rather painfully) disappointed by the first episode – Andy Whitfield (rest his soul) have been replaced by Liam McIntyre (who did very well) and most of my favourite characters are gone (Ashur, Barca, Gaia and Varro are all dead... *angry mumbling*). Not only that but they’ve changed actors and actresses all over the place so if you’re expecting to recognize... well, anyone, you should re-watch Blood and Sand just to brush up on the character names. No need to worry too much though; Craig Parker, Lucy Lawless, Manu Bennett and Viva Bianca are still on the show.
Edit: Seen second episode. Eeverything's muuuuch better now. One of my favourite conniving muscle-mountains are back from the dead. And he's still the same conspiring twat he was last season. And in Gods of the Arena. Omnomnom.

Inky decisions

How the fu… Time really flies, huh? And I’ve tried to compose something new and pretty to tattoo to my skin. I’ve got an idea and I’m pitching it to the artist next week. After that, it’s another week until I’ll bring Lucy to hold my hand. I’m nervous but mostly just excited.

Holy hell this is going to be a lot of fun!

My appreciation for you

Lyrics - Black and Blue

So I went on a frantic search for the lyrics to Black & Blue by The White Buffalo. Because... you know. Because of reasons. The important thing is that I couldn't find them. So I wrote them down.

The White Buffalo - Black & Blue lyrics

Pack up your shit - we’re through

Prepare for black and blue

She slams the door

Out into the night she flew

The neighbor yells shut the fuck up

Well, it’s late and that’s quite enough

Well, I scan the streets and I scream off the balcony for you

Love

Drown myself - it’s just as well

Throw my body in the wishing well

Falling apart, spellbound, scheming for you

I’ll crawl to the corner store

Courage makes me want you more

I’m fixing my mind but I’m fucking it up

For you

For you

It’s all for you

It’s all for you

It’s all for you

Pack up your shit - we’re through

Prepare for black and blue

She slams the door

Out into the night she flew

Love

Love

Love

So now I'm considering buying Prepare For Black and Blue because I really, really want that song. I want to hold it and never let it go. Until I can find something better. Something along the lines of a person.

The White Buffalo

I'm such a mess. Jag lyssnar om och om igen på den här låten och inser varje gång hur vacker den är. Inte nog med att sångaren har en röst som inte är av denna värld men texten...!(!!)

The White Buffalo - Black and Blue


Jag vet inte vad jag väntar på. Antar att jag är lika mycket hycklare som vanligt - säger att jag vill uppleva saker men stänger in mig på rummet. Isolation. Jag blir alltid likadan när jag kommer in i en ny miljö. Mitt beteende känns så desperat. Vem försöker jag imponera på? Inte är det mig själv i alla fall. Här försöker jag att förändra min självuppfattning för att må bättre och allt jag lyckas med är att se ner på mig själv ännu mer. Kan bero på att jag sover väldigt lite nu för tiden vilket gör att jag tänker mer, men kan också bero på andra saker...
Mer bra musik.

Maroon 5 - How


On a happier note: hittar hittills inget större fel på att plugga religion. Jag får dessutom vara kvar i Göteborg, denna underbara och vackra stad fylld till bredden med människor av varje variation. När solen lyser över Göteborg lyser den i mitt hjärta.

Sherlock!

"I'm not a psychopath Andersson, I'm a high-functioning sociopath. Do your research."

"Look at you lot. You're all so vacant. Is it nice not being me? It must be so relaxing."

"Andersson, don't talk out loud. You'll lower the IQ of the whole street."

- Sherlock Holmes, Sherlock - A Study in Pink (2010)

All within minutes of each other! This man is a quote-producing machine. I adore him. And Benedict Cumberbatch is an amazing Sherlock. Also adding that the man we'll see as Bilbo Baggins in the up-coming The Hobbit is Doc. John Watson. That's a good fit as well.
I recommend this.

Ssssssssh!

Don't disturb me, I'm watching BBC's "Sherlock"...

Click it...

Diversity Training with Jane Elliott - Angry Eye

There's racism everywhere at any time against anyone non-white. This video was kind of an eye-opener as to just how much one doesn’t notice when not exposed to it. I knew it was bad but seriously... one never thinks of one’s own privileges.
This woman working against racism, this amazing Jane Elliott, is nasty and crude but how else are you to force people to see what’s going on around them on a daily basis.

Byebye piercing.

Sometimes you just have to give up. I've really tried but it wouldn't heal properly. It was a kind of old one that had to be sacrificed. I don't really miss it. Better to feel good with what's healed up.

Damn.

I fucked up in astronomical proportions at my exam yesterday and feel like shit because of it. I knew I hadn’t studied enough, I just didn’t think it was actually that bad. Oh, my word...
Spoke to some of my classmates afterwards and almost all of them are to take the advanced course of International Relations, which I was to do at first as well, and it still sounds intensively interesting but I can’t stand the thought of feeling like a total dumbass in comparison to all the intelligent people I study with. Again. So I decided on taking a course of Religion instead, where I’m already pretty certain I’ll do quite well. I’m too embarrassed to be around smart people right now. I can’t stand feeling ignorant.

I know why the Housewives are Desperate

I’m a bit embarrassed to admit it, but I’ve started watching Desperate Housewives (the series about the suburban lives of the housewives of Wisteria Lane).
I figured that since so many of my friends watch DH I should give it a chance, but the more episodes I get through the more I consider unfollowing the series. I expected to dislike a few characters (only because I always find something to bother me) but I never thought I’d come to despise the characters I initially thought I’d like. I thought I’d hate Bree and Gabrielle and be quite fond of Lynette and Susan.

Lynette was OK at first. She was tired and mean but then she turned into that sort of mother that can’t see the obvious flaws of her own children and I can’t stand that (I’m not saying it was right of Bree to spank one of Lynette’s brats when he repeatedly defied Bree, but no one even mentioned anything about Lynette throwing her four (!) children at Bree when she had expressively declined babysitting them).
Susan was confused and lonely at first but sson turned into a neurotic, clumsy, bordering on stupid, desperate person I could no longer identify with. I fast forward whenever she’s on now.
Bree has a twisted view of what homosexuality is, but is otherwise very pragmatic and collected which I kind of admire her for. She gets shit done and would die for those she loves.
Gabrielle is a selfish and greedy bitch but only because she used to have it tough and never wants to be poor ever again. She also speaks her mind. And she shares my passion for shoes.

There will be drama when you’ve got nothing better to do than gossip about your neighbours; especially when your neighbours seem to have a dirty past. In conclusion, the human problem is that we always want what we don't have and therefore could get a little desperate in the search for that. Also, boredom brings nothing good.
I’m only a few episodes into the second season but I’ve got a completely different view of the housewives now, comparied to the start of the first season. I liked them at first. Now I'm starting to have second thoughts.

Newly made Tumblr addict

I'm so sorry dudes and dudettes! I've just discovered Tumblr and it's been taking up my time since. There are so many intelligent and beautiful people I need to follow there including a lot of body positive and feminist blogs that have made me happier and more aware (and assholes I prefer to leave alone and imagine out of existance).

Still love you guys! <3 Thanks for checking in from time to time.

This morning

OK, sat down this morning to eat breakfast. A pretty normal thing, I’d say.
Turned on the TV just to see what was showing. "Doctors", OK, will do.
Subject? "SlutWalks". I didn't know what that was and was eager to educate myself.
The panel spoke for a total of three minutes before I had to turn the TV off and throw the rest of my breakfast away. Not so much because of the "sluts" (they're awesome) but because of the "why" the sluts do the walks and why the panel brought them up and where the discussion was going. SlutWalks are a reaction to what a police officer stated about female rape victims. To him, the fact that girls/young women/women/people are raped is their own fault – because he thinks they dress like sluts.

To then hear a woman (in a VERY short dress at that) say that the officer had a point and defend him made me embarrassed to be human. Not only did she do that, but she argued further on behalf of her opinion. “It’s playing with fire” she said about dressing in certain ways, all in her American nasal voice that sounded like she’s just about to pull out all evidence of her privileged and protected background out of her white ass (she also said “I don’t understand why anyone would want to dress sluttishly...” which made her sound even more air-headed as it's up to every and each one of us what we wear). It’s because of women like her that girls are told that “boys will be boys” when they get raped. Sexuality is not an unstoppable force of nature! Girls and women should be able to wear whatever they feel beautiful in, even if it’s made out of string and barely covers the entries to her body, a “no” is still a “no”.
Stop teaching girls that they should be afraid of rapists, tell boys not to rape.